Skip to main content

Effective Immediately

Photo by Lyn
This morning I called a customer service rep. to get something updated, and she told me that the change would be effective immediately. This phrase echoed in my mind, over and over. So much power in it. So much power to be able to affect something instantly, just with a few key strokes. It is trying to tell me something. I allow it to tell me...

It is painful to be in a place where you feel like you can't affect immediately. It is a limiting place. It is a tired place. It is a closed place. It is an efforting place. It is a constricted place.

And I realize that there is only one way that I know to affect immediately. It is to drop into my heart-center, to trust, and to live from this place, in an authentic way, outside of the reality that my physical eyes see, outside of the framework that my mind is used to dealing in.

The miracle of perception returns. There is no other way for me to live. Any other way outside of my heart is too high a price to pay.

My heart opens, and only now do I realize how careful and cautious it has been--timidly closing its wings over itself, afraid to fly. I feel the trust returning and know that I will be guided to what I need to do, where I need to go, and who I need to talk to. I trust that living from the heart has its own agenda that will help me to keep the difficulties of the physical world in perspective, as I see them through the eyes of spirit. I find myself laughing--beautiful cascades of release.

Beautiful morning, it is effective immediately that I notice your beauty; the crisp cool morning air, and the sunlight that shimmers through the rainbow of leaves. It is in this moment that I feel my warm breath and cold toes, it is now that I bask in the silence that brings me to this heart space, when I trust in a bigger picture than what my worldly mind can conceive, and know that the nature of what is created from this place is extraordinary.

Comments

  1. You are beautiful and extraordinary.

    Your heart knows all and it is guiding you perfectly, in every single moment. Effective Immediately.

    You are such a gift. I cherish you, my friend.

    Oh, and the silence. How sweet it is.

    ReplyDelete
  2. P.S: Your mom's photographs are so incredibly beautiful.

    Lyn, did you "hear" that? They are just gorgeous. I haven't seen one yet that i haven't loved. You capture such beauty--i hope you can see the gift in that.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Yes, Brooke, the heart is in possession of its wings. No matter the fear of fly, the wings will be connected with us eternally.

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

♥ Thank you for taking the time connect with me here. ♥

Popular posts from this blog

RIP Poltergeist

After over ten years of an incredibly intense journey as a seeker, I find myself lying fallow. Taking a rest. When I first discovered this uncomfortable fact — threat to the hamster wheel that was my spiritual rat race, I surrendered for dead, but something wouldn’t let that fact sit as truth. I was lying fallow, but this implied that after a good rest, fruit could follow. This had nothing to do with death.

I am humbled at the courage it takes to write. For many years I kept a blog read by only a handful of very supportive people, and you’d think that after sharing writing for so long with perfect strangers, writing would have gotten easier. Actually, it got harder. In fact, at one point I was so paralyzed, I just stopped writing altogether. It was just too vulnerable. There was no trust there anymore, and I attributed any courage I had had to my youthful ignorance.

However, life continues, as it inevitably does, and there is still this pang to write, and it grows stronger and strong…

Pillow Talk

Today I felt the familiar pangs of conversing with my body, it forever unyielding to my demands that it shape itself pretty now. That it chase itself back to its few glory days.

I tell my body that I would be ready to appreciate those days of yore now that I know what I missed while vying for the shapes and sizes of the other women around me.

Over and over my mind and I have run this particular proclamation to my body.

Then, we are good on our road, until the mind closes in and starts to overtake my strides.

You'll never make it there, you are too far gone, it taunts. It is too late.It isn't possible for you.

Then, so predictable--it attacks the most vulnerable part of me. The part I hide, keep covered, feel sure is my perfect disgrace: my belly.

The scale tipped in favor of shame today. Shame that I'd let the house of my being become so run down. That I'd let myself use food to comfort me, pick me up, enhance experience-- and that in the process I'd packed on the ext…

Adventure

Another painting I loved making. I had so much fun just layering paint and swirling about.

Adventure has been a big part of my world as of late. In fact, writing this after a long day of skiiing. Where I used to shy away from leaving the house, I've been doing the opposite. Finally really getting to know my beautiful state and bask in its beauty-- hiking to the top of many peaks--sometimes limping the last stretches back to the car. Took my girls camping on the beach without a 'man'  and was so proud when I got the campfire started multiple times. The girls had their doubts I could do it. It was nice to prove them wrong! My most favorite was the day I drove 5 hours to the closest passport office on a wing and a prayer to get a same-day passport (wing and a prayer because they tell you you can drive all that way, but that there is no guarantee they can/will help you) so I could accept an invitation to see the woman's soccer world cup, and within a week was in Vancouver…